By S.A. Cosby
Narrated by Adam Lazarre-White https://www.adamlazarre-white.com/ @alazarrewhite
Published by Headline Publishing Group, Headline Audio https://www.headline.co.uk/landing-page/headline-books-at-home/ @headlinepg
288 pages (9 hours 23 minutes) ISBN 9781472299123
Publication date 6 December 2022
I was allowed access to an audio review copy on Net Galley. Thanks to the Author and Publisher for organising this.
The cover
Excellent cover, dark, foreboding, in black and white with storm clouds ahead and a small chapel. Totally in keeping with the tone of the novel and an indication of what is to come.
From the blurb
“I handle the bodies.”
Whether it’s working at his cousin’s funeral home or tossing around the local riffraff at his favorite bar, Nathan Waymaker is a man who knows how to handle the bodies. A former marine and sheriff’s deputy, Nathan has built a reputation in his small Southern town as a man who can help when all other avenues have been exhausted. When a beloved local minister is found dead, his parishioners ask Nathan to make sure the death isn’t swept under the rug.
What starts out as an easy payday soon descends into a maze of mayhem filled with wannabe gangsters, vicious crime lords, porn stars, crooked police officers, and a particularly treacherous preacher and his mysterious wife. Nathan must use all his varied skills and some of his wit to navigate the murky waters of small town corruption even as dark secrets of his own threaten to come to the surface.
The narration
This starts with the forward which sets out the background to writing the novel, which is read by the author himself, who possesses a great voice. The remainder is read by an experienced and accomplished actor and voice artist and is magnificent. He displays a nice range of voices and in particular I loved the African bodyguards. The delivery is on the slow side with pauses (which I know some people don’t like and increase the playback speed, I never do) but this brings a depth and gravity to the performance. This is far from being jaunty or frivolous book.
My thoughts
This is the first novel by this Author that I’ve read or listened to. I have a copy of Razorblade Tears (which has had fantastic reviews) to tackle but I wasn’t sure what to expect. After listening to My Darkest Prayer whilst walking my dog, I can see what the fuss was all about, from time to time having to stop walking to take it all in. It is a dark and at times brutal novel, so not for the faint hearted, but it is the intensity of the writing that is absorbing. Certainly from an audio version it totally consumes the listener and after long sessions is quite draining.
The plot is relatively straightforward, Nathan is asked by two ladies to use his former police contacts to ask around to determine why their pastor, Rev. Watkins’, death didn’t seem to be being investigated. It is being ‘swept under the carpet’ and treated as suicide even though it was a gunshot to the chest. A simple look at the body in the funeral home where he works shows it was no suicide. Reluctantly Nathan agrees to get involved and it is his terrier like tenaciousness that makes him go on long after it becomes unwise and eventually lethal.
Watkins it seems was not a pure clergyman, having a chequered past involving drugs, guns and prostitution, but later he was found by God. His congregation it seems were also looking for personal salvation from their own murky past. Watkins’ chapel was doing well though; the collection plate was suspiciously full, tithes were never better and people flocked to the bible classes he held at his home. There was no obvious reason for him to die, but of course, all is not how it appears.
Nathan is a focussed and determined man whose past frames his present. Nathan’s father was white and mother was black which meant racism was never far away. As far as some white were concerned he was just another uppity black but also even within the black community there was some suspicion that he wasn’t black enough. A lifetime of this meant he fights back against racism and bullying, perfectly illustrated by an incident on the school bus. His parents were good people who instilled in him fine morals and a community ethos, it was their deaths that freed his anchor. They were run of the road by a drunken driver, who was the privileged son of a wealthy banker. He avoided jail because vital evidence was ‘lost’ by the police department and later in the story we discover how little this cost to be arranged. This was what made Nathan leave the department and instilled his hatred of local police officers. The search for justice for his parents lead to him crossing a line that he shouldn’t. Nathan isn’t an evil man but rather a good man whose environment contributes to him doing bad things as these back stories demonstrate.
The story is told in first person and bowls along like Nathan’s 57 Chevvy pickup truck, gradually picking up speed as it works its way through the gears, threatening to knock over anything in its path, until it comes to a crashing stop at end of the road. The ending itself produces a couple of twists and surprises along with a fine example of unintended consequences.
I have to say this is a violent novel, there are killings, plenty of fights (some scenes very long) and testosterone splashed around like your grandad putting on Old Spice. For me this is within the framing of the plot but it’s strong stuff. Nathan also has a friend Skunk, who plays wingman when required and he is a true professional a killer of ten men, or was it eleven Nathan was never quite sure, but also an expert scene cleaner, so vital in these days of CSI.
The prose itself is fabulous, at times dark and brooding, at others its almost an intense force that hits you like a punch on the nose. The author also is an expert of the wisecracking, sharp tongued dialogue and descriptions beloved of the hard-boiled genre which bring the necessary lift. There are too many to quote but describing a woman as being as tough as a $2 steak with false eyelashes that could trap a fly or the likelihood of something happening as seeing a Chupacabra taking on the Loch Ness Monster at Double Dutch, stuck in my memory. There is also a lovely streak of black humour, the sort of this you would expect from undertakers such as when an old lady dies post coitus at a care home but I will add no more and spoil that one.
Although very much a male dominated book there is female interest provided by Rev Watkin’s daughter Lisa who is a high profile porn star in LA. She is enlightened as much as businesswoman adding more than ‘a tart with a heart’ trope. Her history is harrowing and once Nathan becomes involved with her it adds to his drive.
My Darkest Prayer is an intensely powerful and brooding examination of financial and moral corruption within a small-town community.
My Darkest Prayer can be purchased from the publisher’s website here
The author
S.A. Cosby is the New York Times national best selling award-winning author from Southeastern Virginia. His books include MY DARKEST PRAYER, Blacktop Wasteland, Amazon’s #1 Mystery and Thriller of the Year and #3 Best Book of 2020 overall, a New York Times Notable Book of the Year, a New York Times Book Review Editors’ Choice, Winner of the LA Times Book Award for Mystery or Thrillers and a Goodreads Choice Awards Semifinalist and the winner of the ITW award for hard cover book of the year, the Macavity for best novel of the year, the Anthony, The Barry , a honorable mention from the ALA Black Caucus and was a finalists for the CWA Golden Dagger. He is also author of the best selling RAZORBLADE TEARS which was also nominated for numerous awards as well
His short fiction has appeared in numerous anthologies and magazines, and his story “Slant-Six” was selected as a Distinguished Story in Best American Mystery Stories for 2016. His short story “The Grass Beneath My Feet” won the Anthony Award for Best Short Story in 2019. His writing has been called “gritty and heartbreaking” and “dark, thrilling and tragic” and “raw ,emotional and profound “
Sources: Amazon author’s page and publishers website (photo)
The narrator
Adam Lazarre-White is an actor, writer, director and producer, who is best known for roles in film and television like The Gift, The Blacklist, Scandal, Grey’s Anatomy, The Temptations, The Young and the Restless and Ocean’s Thirteen.
Adam grew up in Manhattan and graduated from Harvard University with Honors in Government and Political Philosophy. He was the starting Quarterback for the Harvard Crimson and also played in the Harvard University Jazz Band.
Source: Narrator’s website